what's new?

Yes, I've neglected this space for a long time. Probably due to poor human traffic, which is probably the reason why this even exists? Perhaps.

Looking at the previous entry, it's been 3 months. Plenty of things have happened and a handful of things have changed. For better.

I took up basic muay thai under the coaching of a friend named Supreme. Yes, he's taking part in a competition in October.

I graduated. God bless.

I'm enlisting in 22nd October. How soon? Very. I'm excited and anxious at the same time. I do treasure the time I have left till then and enjoying every moment of it, productive or not. I take it one day at a time. I found some revelations along the way. Enlightenment perhaps.

I do realize that money making potential in NS won't be that spectacular. I'll make the best of it though. Getting into shape will be priority and then it will all be character building for me.

I believe NS won't turn me into a man, because it takes years to build a man. At least a lifespan. There's so much more to learn and live for.

I remember having a great time, at least a couple. I really miss those times. Actually, I haven't been out and about with my peers for about 2-3 weeks. I can't come up with a reason. I guess they're all busy. I'm left to my own devices.

I've done a lot of thinking, reminiscing and washing dishes really helps me relax. I'm gonna get married by 30, if I find a suitable spouse. She's probably going to be a Filipina or something. I know; it's not random, I did put some thought into it. We'll get into it one day.

The awesome hangs are greatly missed. The ones I had with Zul, Adam, Shawnrick, Saifuddin, Sharime, Jeevi, Khairul/Supreme and Sly. Those are some I can remember most because it's something special. It's always different, I guess.

I like simple plain hangs with chicken and beer with Sai.

I love muay thai under the dome with the Supreme team.

I like the random fun.

I miss going Duxton, just because the Filipino hostess was damn good and really blows my mind away. I'm kidding. No, I'm not.

Those are just random rants of my subsconscious mind. I just need an outlet.

See you and text me if you can. :)

fight club

July's ending. I have to get my posters ready for next week's presentation. I'm in the last stretch. Go hard.

I learnt a lot in July. I'm still at it. Still being awesome like I wanted to. I'm ready to be a better man. I'm appreaciative of all the things that has happen lately. I'm grateful for all those people I met and the awesome hangs wherever it was.

August will have to wait. Time is now. Let's live and leave a legacy. What's yours gonna be?

make money primer

Work provides an income. Income sustains life.

I have estimated that if I work till October, I will gain about $4000-$6000, of which $4000 is a realistic prediction since I will be getting cuts due to CPF contribution.
Edit: Currently unemployed as of 11 July 2009 as contract ended.

My financial goal this year will be to save $3600 into my savings account and from now till Dec, I am to contribute $100/mth for investment.

I intend to save up to $10,000 in the next 5 years into my savings account and another $6000 towards investment.

I'm heading for NS in October. A rough estimated salary would be around $400 or so, of which, $200 will be intended for savings and investment goals.

Thus, $200 x 24 months = $4800
Balance after deduction for 2 year investment = $4800 - ($1200 x 2) = $2400

Savings for 2009 - $3600 (Savings - $2600, Investment - $1200)
Savings for 2010 - $3200 (Savings - $2000, Investment - $1200)
Savings for 2011 - $3200 (Savings - $2000, Investment - $1200)
Savings for 2012 - $3200 (Savings - $2000, Investment - $1200)

and then

They decided our fate. Currently, I'm out of employment. But dreams don't end here. I'm on the lookout for money making opportunities. I want to get my money up. To date, I believe I've made about $1.5K. A good start. At the same time, I believe I have $500 worth of liabilities. From an awesome point of view, it just saying, let go and it's time for recovery.

I'm still keen on making another $2K in the next coming months before NS.

dear awesome

It's been awhile since I last had you by my side. You were truly the best thing that can ever happened to me. I used to think we were an invincible tag team. I really cherish the moments we spent together. We were one. Every experience was unforgettable. I always count on you and you were always there.

With you, I was that brash young man that could take every single hit and still stand like it never happened. You were that halo above my head. I was that guardian angel, making every moment count and making a difference in someone's life. We were there to outdo yesterday and live like it was our last. We were like Bonnie & Clyde.

I had no regrets with you around. Life simply unfolded its meaning when we were one.

Now, as I wait to see you come back to me, I am hopeful. I know you will come back. I know. When you do come back, I will hold on to you. Longer than I did the last time around. Every day I think of what we would do now if I had you around. Until the day you return, I will read the notes that you have left behind for me to review and find you again. The clues are there. Only you.

this is the plan

I am graduating in August/September. I started working since Thursday and will be doing so till early October, with an income potential of up to S$4000, of which, some will be spent on leisure, audio goods, clothes and accessories, savings, books, gifts and other miscellaneous items in mind. I am earning approximately S$100 per night for 13-hour shifts, every 3 consecutive nights with rest days after each 3-day consecutive days of working. Current mind state for working is "Be Professional", and keep good work ethics at play.

so tomorrow

I'm going for a job interview and then heading to two recording studios to arrange for 30 min interviews for school project. All is going to be well.

Time to get over this long hangover of the year, so far. Dude, 6 months and every day feels like a holiday? Tell me what's life. Haha!

Either way, I have a dream. I want to be a brand name, like Pepsi.

getting over a rut

And with that, I am going for broke. Or gold. That's this week's aim. I am going out on a limp and I will get it done. But first, it's research and getting myself armed. I'm not ready, but I'm making my subconscious game for this.

A few days ago, I loaned out a Zoom H2 Recorder for a couple of reasons. But wait, I think I might get one of these things in future. So far, I have recorded a tonne of samples and my favourites are the clap sounds. It's damn clean and I'm going to make my own clap kit. Neat.

Again, go for gold or broke and go out on a limp. There's a will, a way will come to you.

life changes decisions

And vice versa. You decide, eventually. It's been a week off the blog for me. I might consider blogging once a week. Just maybe. And at least Facebook once. Or maybe create a "Stay Out Of The Internet Week!" if that helps.

I haven't been too busy. I tend to self-destruct from time to time and get back up twice as fast. Awesome feat.

I have 2 months till graduation, or getting the report and presentation done. By then, I'll need a job, for real. No wait, let's be specific. From August till early October, I am earning S$2000 doing something. Now, feel good about that hard earned money. Sweet.

hey how are you?

It's a wonder. A gentle heartbeat rocking me back and forth as I lean forward with hunched back. So subtle life is.

If you ask me that question again, I swear and I ain't going to lie. I've changed. At least in the last 3-4 years.

It's been a while since I had panic attacks. Gone were the days I was unsure. Slowly but surely, I can sense a mount of optimism on the rise. I'd like to believe the law of attraction is true. And it is happening, now.

I sit and wait. Maybe just this week. To figure out my ideals. Significant other, career, money, car, ambition, being grateful and a gamut of things.

Sit here and do nothing. There's bound to be something. A blessing. This week is a rewarding week so far. I'll say so.

Next week will be crunch time and when it rains, it pours.

You should know that I miss you. Every single one of you. For real.